Knocking on Heavens Door
Who am I
- Chicken Burger
- A loser that don't deserve ; A coward that always hide ; This is where you will find the worst of mankind.
Sunday, October 18, 2015
Memories
Monday, August 26, 2013
Lightbulb? Yours truly.
Anyway, had the hardest Physical Chemistry paper ever. And lets stop there. I haven't recovered from the blow entirely.
Well luckily, I have a movie outing after that. Or not. You know the feeling you get when someone just told you don't wanna go for the movie we planned to catch a few days before anymore. She wanna go shopping, something that was dexided on the spot. I mean I was all excited for a bit, a good gathering kind of thing. But BAM! She told you she would ratherbgo shopping.
Actually, Sim ,her hubby(Cheng Keat) Me and Shan bin planned to.catch a movie after the last paper. In the end, Shan wanted to.go shopping with Jean. Thats not the best part. The best part is what Jean said. Cited forom Jean, ' She also.never say she wanna go what. Why you like force her like that.She say she don't wanna go then dont wanna go lah!' Something like that. Horrible. Why in the world, must you say something like that! Damn!
Putting tht aside, instead of watching the conjuring, we watched The Internship.instead. Nice movie, good humour, despite the fact that they are actually selling google 99% of.the time, ok.maybe 98%. But anyway, the movie inspired me quite a bit.
There is this Youth Research Programme by IBN, introduced by my cousin. I am really interested in it and I really hope I can get in. Truth to.be told, I was, you know, not confident. I mean dude, you are competing with a whole population of school students secondary schools polytechnics universities. No way am I gonna make it. In front of those elites, I am just a joke. Like a clown.in oversized pants. Okay not a clown. An idiot maybe. You know what i mean?
Now this movie, it gave me an inspiraration.What may seem impossible suddenly became so possible. Whats worse then a no ?〔cited from my lecturer, Mr Tan〕I too, firmly believe in that. Being able to be in would.be the best. But geting a no is not worse. If you get a no, you will still be acknowledged at being a brave and courages man. All may seem too positive but come on, how does thinking negatively help you?
Apart from all these seriousness, I, have once again, shone brightly as a lightbulb today. Sitting in a cinema, lights out, movie playing. on my left was CK, holding on to Sim's bare hands. I am not gonna tell you that holding hands in a cinema is a Public Display of Affection. But it made me think that hey, having a girlfriend is not a bad idea. But almost immediately, I chunked this stupid idea to.the back.of my head and stared at the screen again.
Another thing that got me into my head was that, i felt lonely. Its like watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows alone all over again.
Thats the end of my post:) On the way back home, almost reaching. Been typing since Bueona Vista. Glad that i blogged instead of plsying games. Conducive and productive. Cheers!
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Thursday, August 15, 2013
Feelings
I didnt know why but I told her how I felt. I dont know what answer to expect but the thing that I torally didnt expect was...the picture she posted on Instagram the next day. I think it is done to show me, to answer me.
Heart broken.Who would'nt?
Its just like the time when I bought a Polaroid as a gift. And in the end, it was still over. Now that I am in Poly?, I will.never make the same mistake again. To like a girl.
I guess these two experiences have made me afraid to have a relationship. Really, not at this age. Or, not ever gonna happen.
I just think that my friends around me who are in a relationship are really fortunate. They love.And they are loved back. I dont wanna love anymore. I am scared. I dont want to hurt myself. More importantly, I dont wanna disappoint and hurt a girl. I have seen too much of it.
Too those in a relationship, dont take love lightly.
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Thursday, August 8, 2013
I am back
Anyway, today is Hari Raya so its a
Anyway, today was a blast! Although the actual plan was a trip to Malaysia(Cameran Highlands, actually i dont know if i spell it correctly), we( uncle aunt cousin da yi and me) were out for the whole day.
Firstly we ate Macs for breakfast. Big breakfast taste monotonous to me. Originally we wanted to cycle but end up walking in the Riverside park for a while.
We then went to ehub to bowl. My ball curved oh my god hope i remember how i did it in future.
And so.we walked around for a little bit ate lunch in a small restaurant(fish head curry bean sprout with salty fish pork meat and prawn sauce chicken and barley watet)and went to Party World for Karaoke weeee:)
Lastly we went to East Coast Park for seafood. Not as good as i hoped for( chilli crab mee goreng duck meat wrap kankong cereal prawn) walked around for a bit and yup head foer home! In fact now am in the carpark hahah.
Lastly, Saturday and Sunday is gonna be my competition. First time playing for SP o.O
Now back home for work!
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Monday, June 25, 2012
Brittany
I really wish Brittany well!She was pie crying none stop!She said that she dreamt of him, thought of the good things he did to her and what they went through together.Its all making her cry:/Heard from Jeng Woon that the guy actually wanna patch up.(Dude then why break up at first place.)I mean it will be so awkward and the purpose for getting together is just to make her feel better but not trully loving her(if there was ever true love)Other than that,Brit is quite alright and kickin!Wish she could turn back to her old self as soon as possible.
Well today Jon is ill and so did not attend school.First lesson was boring as Mrs Yoga went on to babble about stuff that teens like us do not like to lpay attention to.Then it was Chem and Phy....not much la.English was like sian cos the class super noisy then cannot hear the teacher.Geog was as boring as ever.
After school met Brit,go to field,help with painting the field for a bit(helping coach to see whether the lines are straight actually) ,throw ball for a bit,and went back to Brit again with Rueben and Lynette with her.Done abit of Chem and yup thats all.
Hope tommorow will be another awesome day;)
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Revival
After so long and I am finally back:) Friends are awesome as ever and I dont think my life is a joke;) There is a change though: I dont think I believe in long lasting love anymore.
Well not now anyway. I mean there were so many cases of being depressed due to love especially among my friends.
Now it is nearing the O levels, the last year in Sec school.I have found true friends and baseball;) I think its quite enough for my life now:)
Oh today I went to the Harry Potter exhibition.It was worth the time because the props are nice.BUT the things they sell there are way over charged.A small box of jelly beans for six dollars??? WOW I wonder how many jelly beans I can buy with that man.Haha d my bro keep saying"WAAHH we can buy like two games sia-----"Haha well makes sense since one wand is like $75 and a pendant is $100.SGD.WOW.
Tmr is the start of school and I am looking forward to it since I will be spending recess with BRITTANY , JENG WOON AND JON:) Haha well its ultimately becos brit just broke up with her boyfriend(Aloysious i think) yesterday and i will be accompanying her :) I will be staying in sch till 6??? YUP hehe
25June here I come!!(2.5 more hours!)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Then,i blanked out and another scene unfold before my eyes...the fateful incident...
Today is a day worth remembering because something happen...for the first time!Hopefully it wont be the last;)Well i believe that there are many kinds of first time but for my case,it is a happy one;)A happy first time is something that tempts you to have the next time or hope for the second time.Whether it is purposefully or coincidentally,it is still something worth hoping for to happen again isn't it?
And i hope it does;)