Sunday, February 20, 2011
people say..turn over a new leaf...but i turn to another side of myself...Alone...
My blog is all about me and my life.Not really only my life but rather lessons and lectures from my precious relatives,and my own thoughts through things I see.I feel that a person must always be thinking,not only about entertainments but, but self reflections.One might be thinking:Why?Why waste time?That's because only abc self reflecting com yourself,thinking about your behaviour and looking at yourself in another person's eye,you will change yourself and by changing yourself to a greater good others will accept you more.I know that we must be ourselves but someone that is being disliked at really is bad.Most of the time,the atmosphere around you forces you to change yourself to get along well with peers.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I haven't been blogging for really long. Can't wait to spill what I have been keeping in my head.
Lets start with my softball match.The first thing our coach told us that day is that "Peicai won woodland ring by 18-0.And if you win them now,you will get to second round straight away."My ears were stuck and I only heard that we will get to second round when we win them.We didn't get to second round.But I had no regrets since coach us that we played the best match for the first two inning.We made them nervous and morale down.We faced them head on. We had fun.We enjoyed softball and that's the most important thing.
Excellence.
Lost to ACS.So what.We were not losers.We played till the end(except for the pitcher who gave up thinking that everybody gave up.Stupid mentality.)We played heads up,determined.
Win together lose together TEAMMATES.
I can proudly say that,WE PLAYED WELL.
I felt unfair for my junior.The scene is this:my coach chose the guy,who was not even passionate about softball to be in the starting line up,gave him more care and concern.While the hard workng one,passionate about softball,was left out.But never mind.I am going to prove him wrong.
Lets start with my softball match.The first thing our coach told us that day is that "Peicai won woodland ring by 18-0.And if you win them now,you will get to second round straight away."My ears were stuck and I only heard that we will get to second round when we win them.We didn't get to second round.But I had no regrets since coach us that we played the best match for the first two inning.We made them nervous and morale down.We faced them head on. We had fun.We enjoyed softball and that's the most important thing.
Excellence.
Lost to ACS.So what.We were not losers.We played till the end(except for the pitcher who gave up thinking that everybody gave up.Stupid mentality.)We played heads up,determined.
Win together lose together TEAMMATES.
I can proudly say that,WE PLAYED WELL.
I felt unfair for my junior.The scene is this:my coach chose the guy,who was not even passionate about softball to be in the starting line up,gave him more care and concern.While the hard workng one,passionate about softball,was left out.But never mind.I am going to prove him wrong.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
The last three days of the new year was not really nice.Had to interact with people that I don't know but the good thing is that I get the red packets;)
Went to Eugene's house today.He house is magnificent!Awesome house especially the kitchen.His smallest brother is rather cute:)While the second brother is either shy or don't want to greet us.Drank the 0.5 and 5% alcohol which is NICE:)Then played the Xbox with jon and Eugene(Felt sorry for the others:p)His mom's cooking is marvellous too.
Man.I can't help but to feel alone when eugene went home.I saw people waiting for their buses under the night sky. They are not rushing,as if time is something that is infinite,that it can be spent without knowing.When I boarded my buses,I was still very worried com reaching home late.But then I thought that worrying does not help to increase the speed com the bus anyway,so I played with my phone.I thought to myself that whatever happens,I will be in my bed sleeping in the end.So there is nothing to be worried of. What a way to convience myself.
Went to Eugene's house today.He house is magnificent!Awesome house especially the kitchen.His smallest brother is rather cute:)While the second brother is either shy or don't want to greet us.Drank the 0.5 and 5% alcohol which is NICE:)Then played the Xbox with jon and Eugene(Felt sorry for the others:p)His mom's cooking is marvellous too.
Man.I can't help but to feel alone when eugene went home.I saw people waiting for their buses under the night sky. They are not rushing,as if time is something that is infinite,that it can be spent without knowing.When I boarded my buses,I was still very worried com reaching home late.But then I thought that worrying does not help to increase the speed com the bus anyway,so I played with my phone.I thought to myself that whatever happens,I will be in my bed sleeping in the end.So there is nothing to be worried of. What a way to convience myself.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The next time i wont...but...again...
Chinese New Year is here. So school celebrating tommorow.
Why do I feel so alone?Is it because my brother went back to HK or is it that I am so bad in my studies that I felt leftout?They are all so smart in different perspective but I am like an outcast,being good at nothing.My uncle always say that I am a kid that wastes hardearn money to buy not needed stuff like softball stuffs and that I remember nothing but going to softball training.I want to reason with him but I can't because i know that I will lose.My studies used to abc really bad that my aunt call me a rotten apple.Now my uncle call me a stubborn-money-wasting kid.I was angry when my aunt and uncle scold me or swear at me.They know that I will be angry so they say that I have no rights to abc angry.Since when there are rules that allow or don't allow people to have the rights to be angry?
I want to lead a normal life being a schooling kid.Not a kid that have to worry about family problems,obvious bias-ness against me and being insulted at.
I like to be alone.I hate the world.I hate how I am treated.I hate how I am supposed to care and worry about these problems.
I hate my life.
Maybe leave here?
Or don't care?
But definitely not death.It is not a solution.
I want to find a solution to my despair.
Why do I feel so alone?Is it because my brother went back to HK or is it that I am so bad in my studies that I felt leftout?They are all so smart in different perspective but I am like an outcast,being good at nothing.My uncle always say that I am a kid that wastes hardearn money to buy not needed stuff like softball stuffs and that I remember nothing but going to softball training.I want to reason with him but I can't because i know that I will lose.My studies used to abc really bad that my aunt call me a rotten apple.Now my uncle call me a stubborn-money-wasting kid.I was angry when my aunt and uncle scold me or swear at me.They know that I will be angry so they say that I have no rights to abc angry.Since when there are rules that allow or don't allow people to have the rights to be angry?
I want to lead a normal life being a schooling kid.Not a kid that have to worry about family problems,obvious bias-ness against me and being insulted at.
I like to be alone.I hate the world.I hate how I am treated.I hate how I am supposed to care and worry about these problems.
I hate my life.
Maybe leave here?
Or don't care?
But definitely not death.It is not a solution.
I want to find a solution to my despair.
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