Chinese New Year is here. So school celebrating tommorow.
Why do I feel so alone?Is it because my brother went back to HK or is it that I am so bad in my studies that I felt leftout?They are all so smart in different perspective but I am like an outcast,being good at nothing.My uncle always say that I am a kid that wastes hardearn money to buy not needed stuff like softball stuffs and that I remember nothing but going to softball training.I want to reason with him but I can't because i know that I will lose.My studies used to abc really bad that my aunt call me a rotten apple.Now my uncle call me a stubborn-money-wasting kid.I was angry when my aunt and uncle scold me or swear at me.They know that I will be angry so they say that I have no rights to abc angry.Since when there are rules that allow or don't allow people to have the rights to be angry?
I want to lead a normal life being a schooling kid.Not a kid that have to worry about family problems,obvious bias-ness against me and being insulted at.
I like to be alone.I hate the world.I hate how I am treated.I hate how I am supposed to care and worry about these problems.
I hate my life.
Maybe leave here?
Or don't care?
But definitely not death.It is not a solution.
I want to find a solution to my despair.
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