Then,i blanked out and another scene unfold before my eyes...the fateful incident...

Yay!I finally found a way to blog!What a break through;)
Today is a day worth remembering because something happen...for the first time!Hopefully it wont be the last;)Well i believe that there are many kinds of first time but for my case,it is a happy one;)A happy first time is something that tempts you to have the next time or hope for the second time.Whether it is purposefully or coincidentally,it is still something worth hoping for to happen again isn't it?
And i hope it does;)

people say..turn over a new leaf...but i turn to another side of myself...Alone...

My blog is all about me and my life.Not really only my life but rather lessons and lectures from my precious relatives,and my own thoughts through things I see.I feel that a person must always be thinking,not only about entertainments but, but self reflections.One might be thinking:Why?Why waste time?That's because only abc self reflecting com yourself,thinking about your behaviour and looking at yourself in another person's eye,you will change yourself and by changing yourself to a greater good others will accept you more.I know that we must be ourselves but someone that is being disliked at really is bad.Most of the time,the atmosphere around you forces you to change yourself to get along well with peers.

I haven't been blogging for really long. Can't wait to spill what I have been keeping in my head.
Lets start with my softball match.The first thing our coach told us that day is that "Peicai won woodland ring by 18-0.And if you win them now,you will get to second round straight away."My ears were stuck and I only heard that we will get to second round when we win them.We didn't get to second round.But I had no regrets since coach us that we played the best match for the first two inning.We made them nervous and morale down.We faced them head on. We had fun.We enjoyed softball and that's the most important thing.
Excellence.
Lost to ACS.So what.We were not losers.We played till the end(except for the pitcher who gave up thinking that everybody gave up.Stupid mentality.)We played heads up,determined.
Win together lose together TEAMMATES.
I can proudly say that,WE PLAYED WELL.


I felt unfair for my junior.The scene is this:my coach chose the guy,who was not even passionate about softball to be in the starting line up,gave him more care and concern.While the hard workng one,passionate about softball,was left out.But never mind.I am going to prove him wrong.

The last three days of the new year was not really nice.Had to interact with people that I don't know but the good thing is that I get the red packets;)

Went to Eugene's house today.He house is magnificent!Awesome house especially the kitchen.His smallest brother is rather cute:)While the second brother is either shy or don't want to greet us.Drank the 0.5 and 5% alcohol which is NICE:)Then played the Xbox with jon and Eugene(Felt sorry for the others:p)His mom's cooking is marvellous too.


Man.I can't help but to feel alone when eugene went home.I saw people waiting for their buses under the night sky. They are not rushing,as if time is something that is infinite,that it can be spent without knowing.When I boarded my buses,I was still very worried com reaching home late.But then I thought that worrying does not help to increase the speed com the bus anyway,so I played with my phone.I thought to myself that whatever happens,I will be in my bed sleeping in the end.So there is nothing to be worried of. What a way to convience myself.

The next time i wont...but...again...

Chinese New Year is here. So school celebrating tommorow.


Why do I feel so alone?Is it because my brother went back to HK or is it that I am so bad in my studies that I felt leftout?They are all so smart in different perspective but I am like an outcast,being good at nothing.My uncle always say that I am a kid that wastes hardearn money to buy not needed stuff like softball stuffs and that I remember nothing but going to softball training.I want to reason with him but I can't because i know that I will lose.My studies used to abc really bad that my aunt call me a rotten apple.Now my uncle call me a stubborn-money-wasting kid.I was angry when my aunt and uncle scold me or swear at me.They know that I will be angry so they say that I have no rights to abc angry.Since when there are rules that allow or don't allow people to have the rights to be angry?
I want to lead a normal life being a schooling kid.Not a kid that have to worry about family problems,obvious bias-ness against me and being insulted at.
I like to be alone.I hate the world.I hate how I am treated.I hate how I am supposed to care and worry about these problems.
I hate my life.
Maybe leave here?
Or don't care?
But definitely not death.It is not a solution.
I want to find a solution to my despair.

I saw me head down,staring on the floor...Well,FORGIVNESS is expensive...

Today is the show down.
Fun was found.Team spirit joined.Then determination comes in.But fair play was defiance.It was clear that the umpire(judge,refree)dislike us.What a disgusting lost.But today I was proud with myself.With the team.I did my job.My team did too.My team concentrated and played their hearts out.So did I.I know that I made mistakes.Everybody does.We will correct it of course.
Wednesday is against ACS(I).I am not gonna give in.I am not scared.I will win.With the team as one.Today we lost together.On Wednesday,WE WILL WIN TOGETHER.


All the best fish burger!I may have failed but you know what?I heard you today and replayed it in my mind.And I did well.Now it is time to place all my wishes on your hands and bring out the spirit.You will have fun and win.Gallantly

I didnt mean it...It was unintentional....Forgive me....

Today was really great.
I met sebestian at the compasspoint 7-11.We then took LRT to rumbia,which is actually at rivervale mall.Nearby there is a gigantic field with really long grass.I started throwing with sebestian after changing to boots,and found out that he is willing to learn "The Way Of The Catcher".In other words,he wanted to learn to throw as fantastically as eugene.Then senior Danial arrived with a bat but went back home to get his boots. Senior Yong Quan,Nicholas and Junior Ming Jing came together.Finally,senior Tee Hui came.We then worked on the technique called "The Steve Throw"but sadly with Danial,Nicholas, and YongQuan playing basketball which later MingJing joined to.In the end we went to Rivervale mall to have our tea without Danial and Nicholas and went back home.
In this throwing event,I am surprised to find out that Senior Tee Hui actually is really passionate about softball.His attitude today is great.I know that he is deterined to win tommorow.And we will.- --–---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Just now I went to compasspoint alone since all the people in the family is out.I walked there alone,bought my food alone,bought my drinks alone,ate alone,drank alone, and walked back alone.
I loved the silence around.I walked and thought.What is this feeling?Emo?Empty?But it isn't.It is kind of a timeout for myself,from the world,the reality.I walked slowly and observed people faraway,interacting with each other.I felt the wind and looked into the sky.Clouds and also the sunlight which is really nice.It cannot be described in a photo,or by an art piece.The atmospher is truely serene,peaceful and light.
That's what I did.All alone and escaping the reality for a little while.

Sins...wrong doings by myself....no...DONT DO IT!!!

Monday is gonna be a big day.Or should I say the start of the big days.
Competition.
Friday's training brought my moral down.I know it is a bad sign but it happened.I screwed what I was supposed to do.Let my mates down.Let myself down.
But I will not give up.I don't work hard for nothing but one thing.Achieve what I want to achieve.I spent lots of time.Effort.Concentration.It is all for one thing.
I admit that I give up sometimes.But I picked myself up.And my pals too.I failed at times.They did too.They corrected themselves.I did too.
They are determined.So am I.
I will not say that I might win.When you are not deternmined to win,you have already lost.So instead,I say:I WILL win.Because I am
Compassvale's number 16 Wong Kin Loon.

They are laughing..so happily...but fading...

Today I found a chance to blog so I did.
Well to day we had an assembly about controling emotions.There was a test of how well we can manage our emotions and I happen to be one of those who can manage anger and thinks that anger is a common emotion.Well I was wondering why isn't it a normal emotion as it is why anger is there for.It is not weird.
Everything exist with a purpose and anger's purpose is let one self out completely.
Well I currently have a friend who is having friendship problem.What happen is that she lied to her best friend and the best friend found out about it.It may not be a very serious lie but anyway I talked to both parties.
But i want to talk about the one who did the wrong.She called me and spilled her hearts out,crying as if someone was dead.She told me that she appologised but the other party is still ignoring.She believed that she have done enough and can't accept that the other girl is ignoring her in some way.
The point is,my friend,sometimes or should I say,many times,when one lies,we don't see or judge how serious it is.Instead,it is the one who is lied to because she is the one taking it.It may not seem serious,in any way you describe it,but in her perspective it is serious.To add on unwillingly,you are her best friend.You are her trusted buddy.
And here is what I want to tell you,which I hope that you will understanding that I am not scolding you,but to tell you that you have to think in the other's perspective once in a while.Think like you are the one taking in what you did,and understand her.After that give her time to think if she want to forgive you.I know yu tried your best,but again,it is up to her to decide.Or another way is to give her a reason to forgive you.Not only that you appologise,but show her that you will change.
I want to say that friendship is not about destiny.It is about whether you want it to be sustained or broken.

iam running...somene is chasing me...my parents?

Today is a very special day...it is my birthday!The day that I turn 15.
Of course this is the day that my mother gave out all her strength to bring me here.That is why I want to thank her for giving birth to me to have a chance to learn and understanding things of life,which is also what I am blogging about.Honestly,today,it reminded me of my happy days when I was still little.My parents took care of me with so much love but I was too small to realised it then.I hated them when they hit and scolded me.Little did I know that they were actually teaching me and loving me to protect me.Looking back when my parents bought me presents,I realised one thing.It was always them who buy them and not the other way around. I realised their love for me now and I wish to return some of the love back.With my very own money and hard work.
I think that now that I am 15,I can start to thank them properly with my own way and to love them like how they love me.
Now,I want to say that,"Dad and Mom,I love you."

There is a little boy running...he tripped and fall....but...why is his face just like me??

Long time since my last post.I think that my time to blog have really shrunk since i am now in my upper secondary education which have really lots of homework.

Today i woke up really early because my family planned to do some phisical activity of badminton.We reached the court 10 mins later and nobody was there.And so we started.Not long after we started,people started coming.Not only in fours but in groups.I was rather surprised as it seemed to me that they are hiding somewhere and appeared again when we arrived.We went back home after that and i did house work-mopping,vacumming and washing.While the others went out to the POLYTECHNIC talk.Great.Alone doing hard work.

Well it doesn't matter.I was rather happy that I woke up early because when I look back at the time,I realised that I did many things and there is still lots of time to do other stuff.When I finished those work,I am happy because I feel that I achieved something today.I think I realised that the task that one have to complete may be hard,and that others may not reconise it but in the end it is yourself that feel the credit and the sucess of the job because it is you that did it .The feeling is something people cannot snatch it away from you,the feeling of acheivement.

I realised that there is an increase in the people that are tagging on my blog.Wow!Thanks for tagging!How did all of you found my blog anyway?:)Well,thanks for all the support you people gave me.THanks!